Go West young Man!

Last August, my family and I decided to take a trip out West to non other than Washington State. Beautiful drive, coudn't take enough pictures along the way. But as we got closer to the West Coast, a thought hit me: This is what America looked like when the Pilgrims first came over and the time of the Indians when it was known as the New World! So as you can see, I had a feeling of:

MIXED EMOTIONS
How can it be,
That what my mind has seen now comes to me?
Is it really true?
America isn't so new?

Heaven is your throne
The only place I call home
As I watch the landscapes
It is then that my breath escapes

The horses run,
The buffalo graze,
I want the fun,
But I'm in a daze

I look and see the prairie
All this traveling has made me weary
I know I want to get there
For heaven's sake, I'm stuck here!

It doesn't matter when I go
I just want you to know
He is the one I love
No one made you take a shove.

He is the one who made the earth
He is the one who knows our worth
Mire and the clay
Your the one who made this day

Listen to me PLEASE?

Have you ever wanted to be listened to? Actually have a voice in something but can't? Have you ever felt barred by doubts and fears so you just be quiet and watch from the sidelines as opportunities pass on by? I have and when my parents, siblings, and I found out that I was a high functioning autistic with Asperger's syndrome, I finally made my:

AN AUTISTIC'S CRY
Why did it take them this long to say?
Say that I was going to stay this way?
I always felt so insecure,
For that I was totally sure.

Did they not see that the more they navigated,
I was all the more agitated?
Not only am I fighting anxiety,
But for security

Routines are what I love the best,
Even when I leave the nest. 
Trouble is felt when I don't meet your demand,
Although I said "I understand"

Please if you will only heed,
You will hear my quiet need.
Beware on standing near,
You won't like what you're about to hear.

Why do you want my fantasy?
It only capped my curiosity
I try not to hold a grudge
Hey! Anyone want some fudge?

I know I don't always ask
Have you tried to hide behind a mask?
Prentending as someone your not ment to be
Hoping that they wouldn't see

For me, I saw no difference,
It isn't that I'm a nuisance
Its just that I like technology
Not biology

You know, if I'm only given a chance
You can see how well I can dance
I don't need a bully
I get that daily

All I want is a friend
Someone to stick unil the end.
But what I wanted
You had haunted

If your willing to take the risk,
I'll drop the stick
Why is your world spinning like a whisk?
That is totally making me sick

So are you willing to be my friend?
Stick with me until the end?
If you are then you're my pal
To let you know, I'm an Aspiegal

What would the world look like?

When I was younger, I always thought: what would the world today look like if .....? you fill in the blank. Well, I got an answer to one of my questions about boys acting like gentlemen when it came to treating girls like women. That answer came when I heard about a Linn-Mar wrestler who wouldn't fight a girl at the state level.
Thanks Joel.

TRUE CHIVALRY
Chivalry isn't just for knights of old,
That is not what we are told.
We don't always have to be brave,
Why not give instead of gave?

He didn't always defend the land,
He also gave a helping hand.
Living in the castle was pretty neat,
All that steak, roast, even meat!

It was proven throughout the ages,
Also in those worn-torn pages.
Men were remembered for their chilvalry,
sometimes it actually made history.

Why not now,
Have some say "WOW!
I thought that it was only in the past,
But you have proven that it can last."

He did defend the land,
He did give a hand.
Castles don't always have to be neat,
Chivalry starts in your own back seat.

Finally Free!!!

Have you ever felt that feeling when you just start high school, the one where you just want to pitch in the towel but everyone is telling you no? I know I have. Just picture graduation with me:

THE FIRST WALK
I was waiting for this my whole career,
Now it's happened, it's finally here.
My test is over, it is final,
For the first time, no books is natural

Year one, I was so excited
I didn't know that three years were needed
When it was clear I was stuck
I truly wanted to only get out of the muck

Year two, I thought that I knew,
I was the only one in the few
Two years to go
Can't wait to say "no"

Year three, I knew what I wanted to do
Did it happen, wasn't always true
One more year to go
Soon I will hope I will finally know

Year four, I know that soon it will be over
No more books now forever
I can't wait for that day
It will happen sometime in May!

So you see, it is all about me
But you see how can this be
Those gowns as blue as the sea
As far as the eye can see

At one moment, my name is called
Never did I feel that I faltered
As I heard the narrator talk
I prepared and took my first walk

Life and lemons

Have you ever felt like doubting God's goodness? Expecially when He throws a trial of faith your way? I have. Mine happened in April of 2011 when someone I know was diagnosed with type 2 dibeates and I wasn't. This is my Life and Lemons:

SIDES OF HEAVEN
I remember when you were four
The night you fell to the floor
You were flown without a sigh
In a twinkling of an eye

I wanted to help, I wanted to hold
But the only thing I was told
Don't be so graven
I'll see you again this side of heaven

Few years past
I wanted my peace to last
When I saw that you were sick
My own clock began to tick

There you were in that room again
So weak, so white, so very thin
But I wasn't so laden
I trusted I'd see you this side of heaven

Now that you've gotten older,
You seem so much bolder.
When I heard that you were in,
I was going `Not this again!'

As you were going, "Can't you see?"
My head was screaming "It should have been me!"
Don't think of it as a burden,
Wait till we cross the Jordan
And see the other side of heaven